As I was sitting at my desk at work, I began to think about what it really means to surrender. I was thinking about my own personal prayers that I have petitioned the Lord about; things that I desire for Him to do in me. One thing I remembered praying about, and had to confess that when I was asking the Lord to do this one particular thing, I didn't feel like it was coming from a sincere place in my heart. Now don't get me wrong I know it's not about feelings, but about faith; however, as I began to ponder on the subject of surrender, this is what was coming up out of my mouth. I wonder if the reason that I did not feel like my prayer was sincere, was because this was a place that I had not surrendered to the Lord, and maybe this was a place that I have not allowed the Holy Spirit to occupy or have complete control.
I believe the Holy Spirit was using this opportunity to speak to me through my own mouth. I am fully persuaded that He wants to occupy every place in our hearts. It is my belief, that if we are honest with ourselves, we will be truthful and confess that we have not allowed the Holy Spirit to occupy every place in our hearts.
I am learning more and more, just how wicked the old nature is, as the apostle Paul stated in Romans chapter 7, "for I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not." The flesh never will surrender to the Holy Spirit, that's why it must die.
I want to expose the sin that was rising up in me, it was selfishness and I believe this is something that my flesh is not willing to give up. But, if I am going to be Christ like, I must surrender this over to the Holy Spirit.
The Bible makes it real plain, that the flesh is an enemy and only the Holy Spirit has the power to mortify it. I believe the more we yield ourselves to the Holy Spirit, the more we will become more like Christ. We must take on the nature and the characteristics of God.
I do not want to have a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof. I desire to be conformed into the image of Christ and not to be religious and legalistic as the Scribes and the Pharisees during the earthly ministry of Jesus. I want to be renewed in the inner man.
I know that God is able to change me through the power of the Holy Spirit, but it's going to take me, totally surrendering to the Holy Spirit, and allowing Him to create in me a new heart and spirit within me.
I remember what Jesus said "this people worship Me in vain, but their hearts are far from me." We all say things that we believe makes us sound spiritual, but the truth of the matter is, God is discerning the intent of our hearts and He is not impressed at all, by what's coming out of our mouths. I want my confession to be sincere; "God is a Spirit and they that worship Him, must worship Him in spirit and in truth."